Rachel and I ♥P/S: Censored her face as requested, LOL.
I'm still awake at this hour as I won't be attending school tomorrow due to my old sickness acting up, which is my intestines would get entangled and it would also affect my gastric. Once it acts up, both my stomach and my gastric would cause a pain that is unbearable. Worse comes to worse, I would also feel nauseous and would then vomit. I still remembered when I was in primary school, this sickness of mine acted up out of a sudden in school. The pain was so unbearable that I couldn't even walk, and the teacher had to carry me all the way to the office. My mom then carried me all the way back home from school, and I vomited out everything that I'd consumed. The experience was so terrible that I could even remember up till now. If I'm not wrong, I was also told to do an operation but I rejected it out of fear. The doctor then said that I've to take very good care of myself, and that I do not have to operate anymore if my condition gets better. I'm afraid that this sickness of mine will act up if I go to school tomorrow and history will repeat, hence I decided to stay at home and rest instead.
Resting at home is definitely a good thing for me, but there are risks to be taken. All thanks to this biased and not understanding father of mine. Why biased? Because I can never rest at home despite being sick or feeling unwell while my sisters can just rest at home even if they are just feeling a little unwell. Why not understanding? Because he would never believe that I'm feeling unwell even if I tell him about it. I would never forget how he had abused me in the past, causing all these fears and hurts deep inside me. Whenever he sees me staying at home and not attending school, he would slam my room door and kick or slap me till I'm awake from my sleep. Even before knowing the reason of me not attending school, he would bang my head to the wall several times and scream at me like nobody's business. There's once when he almost smash a table on me, how fantastic is that huh? I admit that I'm at fault for not attending school at times, but does all these solve the problem? Tch. Good luck to me, who knows I may be beaten to death tomorrow? He must be thinking that I'm finding excuses to sleep at home, when I'm actually suffering with this unbearable pain.
Alright, enough of ranting. Feel so much better after typing everything out. I know I haven't been updating my blog, because I've nothing to update about! Everyday is almost the same routine, school school school. Weekends are also wasted as there are no places to go at all, how boring. Spent my saturday night having dinner and buying some stuffs at Lot 1 with sissy, and my sunday at Bi's place to keep him accompanied. Almost got suspended from school today just because I didn't attend my time practice, how lame can that be? This school just can't give us peace to study normally like how the others are. And my N level oral is just 2 more days, damn it.
I realized I haven't been posting about my boyfriend yes? Haha. It really took me a lot of courage to let go of the past and move on with this silly boy of mine, but I'm glad that I didn't made the wrong decision. This sweet little boy of mine, who would wait for me after school, who would send me home whenever he has the time to do so, who would calls me up every night to talk to me and say I love you to me before he goes to bed, who gets worried when I don't reply his text, who would writes my name on his hand, and many many more. 300609, I can't live without him..
Oh yes, before I forget. If a guy with an email of samwee1@live.com adds you in msn, do not accept or you would regret. Trust me. I think that this post of mine is so random. I feel like eating hotcakes, okay I'm really random.
Resting at home is definitely a good thing for me, but there are risks to be taken. All thanks to this biased and not understanding father of mine. Why biased? Because I can never rest at home despite being sick or feeling unwell while my sisters can just rest at home even if they are just feeling a little unwell. Why not understanding? Because he would never believe that I'm feeling unwell even if I tell him about it. I would never forget how he had abused me in the past, causing all these fears and hurts deep inside me. Whenever he sees me staying at home and not attending school, he would slam my room door and kick or slap me till I'm awake from my sleep. Even before knowing the reason of me not attending school, he would bang my head to the wall several times and scream at me like nobody's business. There's once when he almost smash a table on me, how fantastic is that huh? I admit that I'm at fault for not attending school at times, but does all these solve the problem? Tch. Good luck to me, who knows I may be beaten to death tomorrow? He must be thinking that I'm finding excuses to sleep at home, when I'm actually suffering with this unbearable pain.
Alright, enough of ranting. Feel so much better after typing everything out. I know I haven't been updating my blog, because I've nothing to update about! Everyday is almost the same routine, school school school. Weekends are also wasted as there are no places to go at all, how boring. Spent my saturday night having dinner and buying some stuffs at Lot 1 with sissy, and my sunday at Bi's place to keep him accompanied. Almost got suspended from school today just because I didn't attend my time practice, how lame can that be? This school just can't give us peace to study normally like how the others are. And my N level oral is just 2 more days, damn it.
I realized I haven't been posting about my boyfriend yes? Haha. It really took me a lot of courage to let go of the past and move on with this silly boy of mine, but I'm glad that I didn't made the wrong decision. This sweet little boy of mine, who would wait for me after school, who would send me home whenever he has the time to do so, who would calls me up every night to talk to me and say I love you to me before he goes to bed, who gets worried when I don't reply his text, who would writes my name on his hand, and many many more. 300609, I can't live without him..
Oh yes, before I forget. If a guy with an email of samwee1@live.com adds you in msn, do not accept or you would regret. Trust me. I think that this post of mine is so random. I feel like eating hotcakes, okay I'm really random.
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