Day 3 - What kind of person attracts you

Okay, honest and realistic hour mode on in this post. What kind of person attracts me? Guys definitely, I'm an extremely straight person ._. Guys who are tall, having long legs that would make you look attractive in skinny jeans is no doubt a bonus point. Guys who are neat and dress up well, SLOPPY GUYS AND GUYS THAT HAVE DRY LIPS ARE A HUGE TURN OFF. Guys who have sharp face contours, having a lil 'bad boy' look and feel would be so much better h3h3. Guys who are gentlemen, considerate about his life and future, faithful and serious in relationships, not a player and don't flirt, not a smoker, knowing when to be serious and mature and when to be fun and loving.

But of course, no one is perfect in this world and what matters most is the feelings. And right this moment, no one would ever attract me more than...

This baby boy of mine ♥

P/S: Jayden Cheah don't smile smile when you see this hor!

Day 2 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?

The past 2 years had been the toughest life path in the whole of my 18 years, yet the path that has made me grown and learnt and made me who I am today. How have I changed in the past 2 years... I'd say my mindset, and my perspectives in life? Throughout the past 2 years, I've met all sorts of bullshits people and guys. We've all shed tears for people who don't give a fucking damn about us, admit it. So yup, in my perspective 80% of the guys in this world are nothing but bullshits. They treat girls like toys, they bring you up and leave you hanging then make you fall yet fail to be there to catch you. When they're interested in you, they mesmerize you with their sweet-o-nothings every day and night. But when they start to get sick of you, they turn their back at you without uttering a single word. Girls, be wise and never give up hope just because of these 80% of bullshits existing in this world. Heaven made us meet them so that we'd learn and cherish the rare 20% when we meet them, I'm a living example here :)

As for all the bullshits people that have came and gone in my life, thank you for making me realized that what doesn't kill me actually make me stronger and screw you for trying to break me apart. These people made me realized how scary this world is and how everyone (except for your closed ones) lives with a mask on. One moment they could be nice to you in front of you, the next moment they could be turning into another person behind your back. Don't ever trust anyone, for sometimes we can't even trust ourselves. You can trust your family and your significant other, but not all the time though. And always remember, everyone only deserves a second chance if they ever break your trust. And that second chance, is what you've given them to change and learn to cherish you more than how they used to. So if they ever asked for a third, fourth or fifth chance, don't be foolish. THEY DON'T DESERVE YOUR TRUST.

I've also learnt that time passes people change, but the memories created in our hearts will never be erased. And most importantly, no matter how much boundaries life throws us, sometimes all we can do is just to say "fuck it" and continue to go on and move on in life. Don't rely on anyone in this world but yourself, because at the end all that you're left with is only yourself and nobody else.

As I faced failures after failures in studies, my mindset towards it has also changed. I still remember how nonchalant I was towards studies, skipping school, not focusing in class and etc... If I ever had a chance to lead 2009 again, I'd definitely make a difference. Not that I've no turning point in life now or anything, at least I could still pursue a private diploma (or more) and not ending up with nothing. But after all, government certs are definitely better than private certs isn't it? In my perspective, we're seriously nothing without a proper cert in this society. If you're reading this and you're given a chance to make a difference for yourself, please please please cherish it. Nothing is impossible, if there's a will there's a way. Remember, time doesn't stop for anyone. Once you missed it, there's no turning back anymore.

Alright alright, enough of all the life truths. Let's now take a look at how I've changed in terms of looks in the past 2 years...

I think the greatest obvious change is my hair? Which many people have told me, "nothing much of you have changed except for your hair ha ha ha". What about you? How much do you think I have changed in terms of looks for the past 2 years?

I am now a girl that don't trust anybody except for my family and my boyfriend, a girl that has learnt how to set my life priorities right with what I've seen and faced. I build walls to protect myself from getting hurt, and I shed tears not because that I'm weak by nature. I shed tears because I've been trying too hard to be strong, until I slowly got sick and tired and not wanting to try anymore. I am who I am today, because of the mistakes I've made yesterday.

Hi blogger, yes I'm back to blogging because my inspiration to write is back. But well, life has been too mundane for me to blog about anything interesting. So I've decided to do the 30 days challenge whereby I'd have a different topic to blog about everyday. I'll start with day 1 today, "weird things you do when you're alone".

Hmmm, instead of weird things I do when I'm alone, I'd rephrase the topic to things I do alone that others might not have known about it? When I'm alone at home, I'd look up for instrumental music on youtube and start singing along with it. And once I start doing so, it'd be almost impossible for me to stop. Ha. I'd even record my singing at times. Except for that, I'd spend hours looking into the mirror playing with my hair. By 'playing', I meant trying out different hairstyles to see if I'd look good with 'em. Sometimes I'd also google and research about stuffs I'm curious about, like for instance symptoms for a particular sickness and etc. Last but not least, perhaps the least expected one, is that I'd browse through kinky images on tumblr. Nope don't read too much into it, I just personally find those images artistic and so. Yeah. When I'm alone in the dark, I'd tend to get paranoid out of no reason and start to feel lonely and think a lot. Which is what I really hate, yet unable to do anything about it. Oh yes, there's something I LOVE to do when I'm alone. S-T-A-L-K-I-N-G, especially when it comes to my boyfriend. There was once I went to the extreme of clicking on his 'older posts' on his facebook wall till I saw 'there are no more wall posts to display', and going to his ex-girlfriend(s)'s blogs to read what they have blogged about during the period they were together. Has anyone ever believed that I'm this scary? *evil laughs*

Yup, these are the usual things I'd do when I'm alone that prolly no one has known about it. What about you? What weird things do you do when you're alone?

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Happy 2nd monthsary my dearest baby boy, I love you ♡

Amanda saeng-il chugha! ♥

Yep, it was younger sis's 13th birthday last 31st. Dined at Ajisen, and had our usual cake cutting celebration on the eve. This year's celebration was a rather tedious one. The atmosphere was dense and all, and it was pretty sad that dad and dearest boy didn't join us :\ Neo came over to give younger sis a surprise visit along with a birthday gift for her the next day, the both of us (Neo and I) then ended her big day off with some Pizza Hut delivery treats. Hope that younger sis did enjoyed her day with us even though it wasn't a very eventful one, afterall it's the thought that counts isn't it? ☺

Okay so, life has been really really mundane. To phrase it in a negative way, I'm practically wasting my life away. Found a job previously, but decided to forsake it 3 days later since it doesn't suit me. Dearest boy and I are alright, in fact we're getting better than before after our getaway trip. Fam and studies wise, issues and issues here there and everywhere... Well, parts and parcels of life I supposed? If I could really use a wish right now, I'd wish for nothing except for being happy with my loved ones around me ♡

Genting post up next, am feeling sexcited editing the photos~ Stay tune lovelies! X

Ending this post with two of my current favorites...

13th ∞

Happy 1st monthsary my dearest baby boy, I love you ♡

L O V E

Love is when he breaks your heart time after time, yet you still fall in love with him over and over again with all the bits and pieces. Love is when he makes you cry, yet you still do all that you could just to make him smile. Love is when you sit by your phone all day long waiting for his text or call, stalking him virtually, with him running through your mind constantly, even when you've said you wouldn't care. Love is when you'd say "I love you" back without hesitant when he said it to you, even after the uncountable times of heartbreaks. Love is when he's the first person in mind you wanna share 'news' with, be it good or bad. Love is when you fall asleep thinking about him, and having him as the first person appearing in your mind the moment you open your eyes. Love is when you wake up in the morning yearning to see his texts appearing on your cell. Love is when you wish for him to be by your side through all good times and bad times. Love is when the sight of him puts a smile on your face, no matter how bad the day was and how unhappy you were. Love is when you'd feel satisfied and secured enough just by interlocking your fingers with his. Love is when you'd feel happy as long as he is by your side, even if it's just laying down and forgetting the world together. Love is when all you wish for is just his happiness, be it with or without you. Love is when you could give your all and everything without expecting anything in return, even if all that he gave is nothing. Love is when you're willing to throw the pride of a lady away just to make him stay. Love is when you get jealous and paranoid when he interacts with other girls, because you love and care too much to fear of losing him. Love is when you learn to accept his flaws and see through his imperfections perfectly. Love is when you wouldn't even bother to take a glance at any other guy, because he's all that matters. Love is when there're millions of reasons for you to leave him, yet you chose to hold on to that one and only reason to stand by him. And the reason is simply, love.

Love is selfish, love is blind. Love has the power to make us the happiest person on earth, yet also has the power to make us fall and break us apart. Love turns all of us into someone that we said we'd never become, and into someone that we've never thought of becoming.

Love, just happens.

- effyeahmichelle

P-P-PICNIC! ♡

Yep, above are peek-tures for picnic last week with dearest boy & co. Enjoyed the star gazing and bonding session even though the picnic wasn't a very eventful one. And most importantly, I finally got 'picnic' stroke off from my to-do list! Genting and USS trip, I'm coming after you next~

Wanted to blog about my CNY before blogging about this. But neh, it's been 987654321 years since CNY is over and I bet you guys wouldn't be interested in it anymore yes? Thousand apologies for the abrupt hiatus, I was vigorously attacked by lazy bugs and lost the motivation and interest to blog :( Life has been pretty mundane. Or rather, boring? Have been wasting my life away rotting, hanging out with fam, boyfriend, friends and nothing else. Tried hunting for jobs but sadly, to no avail. If anyone has any job recommendations, do let me know! Retail or basic admin work (like data entry) preferred, thanks a million ♥

Can't wait for the getaway trip to Genting two weeks later, it'd be the first time in my life I travel with my boyfriend and friends. Can you feel the excitement in me already? Teehee. I used to find horoscopes bullshitting when they said that Sagittarians are adventurous souls that love to travel. But as I tend to grow older and older, I can't help agreeing to it. If god were to give me a million dollar now, I'd definitely be traveling around the world (excluding Japan LOL) with my love. Awesome shitz.

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13th, I love you Jayden Cheah ∞

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